Mom, you are doing so much better than you think you are. Please don't compare your "worst" to everyone else's "best". That isn't a fair thing to do to a person who sacrifices so much to help others grow and achieve their dreams. You wouldn't dare do that to anyone else, so please don't do it to yourself. You have wonderfully imperfect children who love you more than you will ever know. So give yourself a break, take one of those 3 minute naps, and just keep being your amazing self.